Jacque Findlay

Well, its official...I turned my notice in to the theatre. My last day will be January 1st. It's totally weird, scary, awesome, and just great all at one time. I will be working at Applebees as a host for a while, then a server. I dont know how long I will be there. I want to get my credit card paid off and then go from there. Now that I have quit the theatre its like now I have to decide what I want to do. I have no idea. Thats what made quiting so scary. I dont know what to do next. This year....man....it sucks.

I LOVE YOU SASCHA, GET WELL SOON!! This year had a very enthusiastic beginning. I started with an optimistic outlook. I lost 40lbs by March. I had been in therapy for 4 months and felt like I might just be able to resolve some of my issues. I was ready to start dating, I was putting myself out there, and I genuinely felt like I could deal with the negatives in my life. I had one of the most fun summers of my life. Vacations, even 30 minutes from my home, were blissful . Yes there were still negative things going on that sometimes made me want to hurl, but overall I was coping. Then in a blink of an eye everything changed. Sascha invited me over to her house because she wanted to talk. I had a work party at my house later so I showed up in my orange skirt and short denim jacket worried about what she wanted and how long it was going to take. I pulled up to see Jayson leaving on his motorcycle and I was instantly irritated. This was the first time I had actually seen him since I knew Sas...