Oh how things change....
If you had told me two years ago I would be where I am now I would have called you crazy. It's amazing how much time can change everything...how experiences in life give us a new perspective. How moments can so dramatically change the path we are on.
I keep wanting to say "Oh how I have changed in the last year" but really it's been more than a year. Sascha died over a year ago and it feels like just yesterday. Sascha dying is what I thought changed me but really I was changed before that...it just took that dramatic event for me to admit it to myself....even after that dramatic event it took me like 9 months.
I dont like talking about religion or my religious views with people. There are a couple reasons for this.
1. People get so upset and opinionated over this stuff...myself included. And I avoid that battle by just not talking about it
2. I felt like a hypocrite saying I believed in a certain thing without really understanding it or studying it.
3. Many faiths, in this area especially the Mormon faith, is considered to be judgemental and closed minded. I didn't want people to think that because of my religious views I was in anyway judging them.
4. This should probably be number one. But I dont like talking about religion because I dont like claiming to believe in something and then not living what I believe in. I was the worst example and it seemed easier to claim indifference than to admit that I dont live the way that I know I should be living.
All that is a little too in depth though. I want to explain from the beginning how my life has changed. This is going to take a while and I dont know why I am doing it. It will mostly be for myself I guess, but hey whatever.
**** Coming Soon ***** A journey into the twisted logic that makes sense through Jacque's eyes :)
I keep wanting to say "Oh how I have changed in the last year" but really it's been more than a year. Sascha died over a year ago and it feels like just yesterday. Sascha dying is what I thought changed me but really I was changed before that...it just took that dramatic event for me to admit it to myself....even after that dramatic event it took me like 9 months.
I dont like talking about religion or my religious views with people. There are a couple reasons for this.
1. People get so upset and opinionated over this stuff...myself included. And I avoid that battle by just not talking about it
2. I felt like a hypocrite saying I believed in a certain thing without really understanding it or studying it.
3. Many faiths, in this area especially the Mormon faith, is considered to be judgemental and closed minded. I didn't want people to think that because of my religious views I was in anyway judging them.
4. This should probably be number one. But I dont like talking about religion because I dont like claiming to believe in something and then not living what I believe in. I was the worst example and it seemed easier to claim indifference than to admit that I dont live the way that I know I should be living.
All that is a little too in depth though. I want to explain from the beginning how my life has changed. This is going to take a while and I dont know why I am doing it. It will mostly be for myself I guess, but hey whatever.
**** Coming Soon ***** A journey into the twisted logic that makes sense through Jacque's eyes :)
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