Jacque Findlay

This blog is brought to you by an incredible weekend of laziness and way to much time to think. The weekend started out pretty hopeful. It was the first weekend in a while that I didn't have big plans, I knew I would be able to sleep and be lazy. I even had a date (quick meet and greet) scheduled Saturday. I've had a cold all week but I didn't want to be groggy Saturday so I didn't take NyQuil and I set my alarm so I could get up early and fancy up for this guy I've never met. Now before all my friends with kids judge me for having to set an alarm for 10:00am...let me just say this...you decided to have those babies so don't you judge me for being single and childless, lol ;) 30 minutes before I'm supposed to meet this dude, he messages me and says he's still got a ton of errands to run and would like to reschedule. WTF. We'll fortunately for him I've got a pretty thick skin and besides, hanging out with my Mom at Costco is a much better us

I love New Years. I love new beginnings. New opportunities. I understand you can start ANYTIME, but there is just something about a new year for me that really recharges my batteries. As I look at my new years resolutions I think of what goals I can set in my life that will help me achieve balance. I firmly believe that finding balance is the key to happiness. Like real happiness. The kind you feel when you are alone in a room with no one around. That kind that makes you stop, sigh, and realize just how content you are with your simple life. Finding balance is the key. I believe that to achieve happiness you need to focus on balance in 4 areas. If you put too much emphasis in just one of these for areas then you are going to achieve the highest level of happiness that you possibly can. “Happiness is not a matter of intensity, but of balance, order, rhythm and harmony.” Being happy doesn't mean getting everything you have ever wanted. It means taking joy in the small moments

It's amazing how much a few years can teach you about yourself. I know myself pretty well and yet I feel like I learn more and more about me everyday. The last 3 years have been quite the roller coaster ride. In the process of achieving balance, I have been through a lot of ups and downs. It's usually times like these...2am on a Saturday night....that I start thinking about how I am doing at finding balance. I firmly believe that for a person to be at their happiest they need to have balance in 4 areas in life. 1. Physical 2. Spiritual 3. Financial 4. Social Imbalance in one area affects them all. For example, if you don't feel good about yourself physically it may affect your social life. Or if you don't feel stable financially it may affect your attitude therefore affect the Spiritual, Social, and...if you are like me and eat your emotions....it will affect you physically. There have been a few times in my life where I have achieved pretty good balance in

For a really long time I had been thinking about the direction my life was taking. It wasn't as much religion that was driving me to get closer to God, it was more the desire to have direction in life. I had always believed in God. Knowing whether not he existed and loved me was never an issue. It was feeling worthy of that love. I felt like because I wasn't living in away that would thank him for his sacrifice and guidance, I wasn't worthy to ask for the direction I need. For a very long time, and I mean years, I have felt like (and I use the word 'have' because I still feel this way) there is a very specific reason I am here and whatever it is the path I was on was not going to lead me to it. It was very frustrating not just feeling, but knowing, I was here for a purpose that I wasn't fulfilling. So for a long time I would just live life mostly angry and frustrated mixed in with some temporary happiness. I got so angry about life on a deeper level that every

If you had told me two years ago I would be where I am now I would have called you crazy. It's amazing how much time can change everything...how experiences in life give us a new perspective. How moments can so dramatically change the path we are on. I keep wanting to say "Oh how I have changed in the last year" but really it's been more than a year. Sascha died over a year ago and it feels like just yesterday. Sascha dying is what I thought changed me but really I was changed before that...it just took that dramatic event for me to admit it to myself....even after that dramatic event it took me like 9 months. I dont like talking about religion or my religious views with people. There are a couple reasons for this. 1. People get so upset and opinionated over this stuff...myself included. And I avoid that battle by just not talking about it 2. I felt like a hypocrite saying I believed in a certain thing without really understanding it or studying it. 3. Many faiths, in

Well, its official...I turned my notice in to the theatre. My last day will be January 1st. It's totally weird, scary, awesome, and just great all at one time. I will be working at Applebees as a host for a while, then a server. I dont know how long I will be there. I want to get my credit card paid off and then go from there. Now that I have quit the theatre its like now I have to decide what I want to do. I have no idea. Thats what made quiting so scary. I dont know what to do next. This year....man....it sucks.